Funk

I have been in a weird funk for a few days. It has been mostly influenced by my good friends, my Hormones!! I hate that chemicals in my body can so affect the way I think and feel at this time of the month. I am not usually affected this much by hormones, but I think there are other factors at play as well. Anyway, I don't know what to do with myself. I am not used to feeling...well depressed. I am the kind of person who gets upset, cries, gets a good night's rest or two and then I am fine. I don't really get depressed, so I don't know what to do about it. Although, Aaron made a good point, since this is most likely due to hormones, now is not really the time to make a plan or try to figure it out. If I just wait a few days, I should be fine. One thing that helped was last night, I talked to a new friend from my community class. We just talked like we had known each other for a long time. It was really nice. In some ways it was better than talking to someone I know. There wasn't any of the life stuff and views that we knew about teach other to get in the way. The judgements and emotions that many times creep into a relationship were missing as well. We just talked about life, kids, family and lots of other stuff. It was nice to just talk to another woman who feels the way I do about a lot of things. I don't make close friends well. I have a lot of acquaintances, but not a lot of good friends that I get together with and just talk about nothing. I pretty much have two Friends like that and one is moving! Another thing that has helped (especially because a big part of what I am upset about is not being pregnant) is having such cute and sweet kids around me. They are both so wonderfully sweet! Belle loves to open her arms and come running to me to give me a big smiley hug many times through the day. That just melts my heart!